nerves.

I feel a small collection of nerves, anxieties pushing up against my chest.
today is the start of it.
in roughly 20 minutes the meeting with begin.
I don't think it will be as awful as I'm letting myself believe.
Either way, I have to take this seriously.
Is he going to follow through with what we talked about?
Or is he going to take matters into his own hands?
There is no way he will ever get custody.
I will fight if necessary.
Please just don't be necessary.
He will never, ever understand the bond between mother and child.
These years are crucial.
Please, Please let this go smoothly.